You've got mail!

The thing we have anticipated for so long has finally come. Sort of... only I didn't feel that relieved when Bjay called me this morning to tell me "I got an email"... I knew what this meant. I knew what he was about to tell me and I felt my stomach drop to my feet. He received an email from his boss asking if we would be willing to move to New Mexico. We haven't responded yet, we are weighing out our options and have a lot to think about. He doesn't want to do any moving until his Bachelors degree is finished (4 classes left). There is so much at stake. So much that will change, so many things to look in to. So much anxiety. It isn't where we wanted to go, in fact it isn't even close but would it be worth it to at least get there and stick it out for a while until he finds something better? I just don't know. It isn't like I love this place we are in, it isn't like I want to stay here any longer but it is just finally knowing that we are leaving that is hard to swallow. Stupid huh? I do not like change, not like this. I don't like moving around. I don't like starting over every few years, making a life, making friends, just to leave it all behind. It comes with the job. It is what we signed up for, but my anxiety is through the roof right now. I will keep you all posted, like I said we haven't agreed to anything. We are just afraid that if we say no we may get asked to go somewhere that we REALLY don't want to go... and we can't say no forever. I need to make a list of pro's and con's, I need to sort out my head... I need to take a deep breath. I need a nap!